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Episode I: Azure and Gold
so blue, 't was a dream,
An impossible, unconceived hue,
The high sky of summer dropped down
Some
rapturous ocean to woo.
Azure & Gold by Amy Lowell
(1874-1925)
From A Dome of Many Colored Glass.
Part 1: Thoughts of Death In Far Flung Fields.
Qui-Gon Jinn, Jedi Master, was dying, a sad truth known only to members of the Council and Obi-Wan Kenobi, his Padawan learner. The wasting disease which wreaked havoc on his body appeared to have no source, despite vigorous examination by the most revered and learned Jedi Healers, and therefore it rendered a cure impossible. While the Master had become reconciled to his fate, the Padawan was having difficulty even accepting the idea of it.
For Obi-Wan, his master had been the only father he had ever known, those in the temple, his only family. He had been raised there since his potential in the Force was discovered, learning first with every youngling in his generation under Master Yoda, then with Qui-Gon. The two masters were his anchors in a galaxy which rarely flowed smoothly.
Now as he learned that he was to loose one, it was as if he were being cast adrift in space. He had been raised to trust in the Force, to believe that things happened for a reason, yet he could see no reason in a great Jedi slowly dying. Unlike his master, he paid a strict adherence to the Code, but now those tenets of Jedi philosophy provided him with no answers, let alone comfort. Not for the first time he was greeted with his master's perspective and he was unable to find answers or comfort there either.
Focus on the moment, Qui-Gon told him. He was standing before the guard rail on one of the many hanger ports which were attached to the Temple. His gaze was fixed on the constant airborne trafficways of Coruscant City, the capital of the Core, the Republic. Usually, such a scene served to calm him, assisted in focusing his thoughts, like the sunrise and sunsets of the worlds which they visited during their many missions out in the field, but now only the realisation of his whereabouts was as far as he got before his mind told him once more that Qui-Gon was dying.
Until the possible becomes actual it is only a distraction. Another
of his master's credos. But Obi-Wan could not ignore the distraction, because
his master's death could happen at any moment. The cruel irony of Qui-Gon's disease
was while it could not be cured, his body could still rely on the Force to sustain
him, via healing trances, which he, or thanks to training provided by the Temple
healers, his Padawan, could induce upon the ageing and diseased body. Such trances
allowed Qui-Gon and his Padawan to go on missions for the Republic, like the one
which they had been given now.
A set of systems allied under the Trade Federation had placed all trade routes to the mid rim system of Naboo under a blockade, in protest of the current taxation on trade routes, which the government had seen fit to impose in order to break a crippling deficit in the Republic's economy. While the Senate was locked in motions of legality, Chancellor Valorum approached the Jedi to send a team to investigate. Qui-Gon volunteered their services. Obi-Wan had not been to the planetary system before, so he spent time in the Temple Archives researching before their departure, whilst Qui-Gon consulted the healers. At the mere thought of the word the Padawan flinched before deliberately turning his thoughts in another direction.
Perhaps his future knighting, although
that was a subject fraught with turmoil now too. A Padawan's readiness for the
trials which could make him a knight was at the discretion of their Master. If
Qui-Gon died before he declared to the Council that Obi-Wan was ready, his training
would be incomplete. If he was lucky, he would either be given a new master to
train under, or the Council would knight him. But Obi-Wan did not believe in luck.
After his group training under Master Yoda, he waited for a master to choose him
as their Padawan, in vain as it turned out, leaving him with other less powerful
Force users to join the Service Corps. If Qui-Gon had not discovered his potential
during the journey to Bandomeer, Obi-Wan would have spent the rest of his life
in the Corps. Outsiders would call that luck, but Obi-Wan knew it was all Qui-Gon.
His Master had a penchant for acquiring strays. Idly he wondered if they would
acquire any during this mission.
-Obi-Wan, are you ready for departure?-
a voice lanced through his mind.
-Yes, Master,- he replied in the same manner. Filing his ruminations into his mind and bringing his research concerning the mission into the forefront, Obi-Wan turned from his traffic-gazing to the craft which he would fly to the Chommell Sector, moving to prep the vehicle for departure.
Padmé Amidala stood before a window, dressed as Queen for the last time. Her people had elected her in good faith, believing her to be the best candidate for the throne. And now, as she watched the invading army below progress ever closer towards the Palace, she knew that she had failed them. By continuing to act passively, to believe that negotiation would work, all the while hoping that the Senate would support her, that Chancellor Valorum's Ambassadors would arrive, in short, that some one else would solve what was her crisis. She was not the youngest monarch elected, and she had promised her people that her youth and inexperience would not be an issue. Yet she had relied on both of these factors as an excuse to appeal to the Senate.
Her people were
peaceful, like herself, the last thing they wanted was war. But she should have
known that a fight was inevitable from the moment the blockade began. She should
have done what she could to prepare them for this possibility, for the invading
force marching below her now. The guilt weighed upon her, as heavily as the crimson
robe which adorned her small form, hiding her youth from the outside world. Elaborate
designs to convey her majesty, aswell as protection from those who might wish
her harm felt nothing more than costumes now, a symbolism rendered insignificant
when the planet was more concerned with invasion. She wanted to shred these robes
of office, to show the galaxy that she was mortal like her people, and hurt by
the injury which the blockade caused. But the Naboo clung to this symbolism, to
the mythology of majesty, while offworlders often found the rich austere clothes
and intricate hairstyles imposing in their own right, even before she spoke so
much as a word. For her people's comfort, she was obliged to uphold at least the
appearance of authority, even though such power was now rendered useless by the
invading army marching below.
"Milady?" A voice called out,
causing her to turn her head a little, at the arrival of one of her handmaidens;
Sabé. Unlike the others, she was dressed in another of the elaborate costumes
which belonged to Queen Amidala; a black layered gown with an oval head dress,
which was adorned with two gold craved clasp covered orbs, unlit jewels of the
same gems that were attached to her crimson dress before the hemline and black
feathers. Sabé had painted her face in the same pale white tone which Padmé
used to hide her youth. The whole effect was designed to display a monarch in
mourning; for the turmoil visited by others on her country. Her handmaiden's arrival
was the signal for her to change; into one of the flame coloured dresses worn
by her attendants and assume her decoy's role, another layer of protection from
the Trade Federation. Ironically, her wish to shred her robes of office was about
to be granted.
"I'm ready, Sabé," she replied, stepping
back from the window and walking to join the handmaiden who would now act as Queen
Amidala at the threshold of the room. Decoys were a part of the security measures
which Captain Panaka employed when she became Queen, along with self-defence and
basic weapons training. Nearly all her attendants had been selected with their
resemblance to her in mind, for precisely this eventuality. At the time such defence
seemed unnecessary, but now Padmé realised the value behind it, for such
skills she would doubtless need to employ in the near future.
By the
time the Viceroy had arrived, Padmé was merely another of the handmaidens
who attended the Queen. Initially she was worried that they had seen through her
deception, but the Viceroy was too full of the fruits of his victory to look beyond
the face paint which hid her faithful double. Silently she followed Sabé
and the others out of the Palace through to the outdoor Plaza, under the close
escort of the droid soldiers. They reached the wall of the gatehouse, when suddenly
there was a humming sound and two men jumped down from a balcony above them. Within
seconds four of the droids were down, the rest likewise succumbing until there
were none left.
After leading them to a quiet empty alleyway out of
sight of the other soldiers, their two rescuers swiftly bowed before them in silent
greeting, while the third who had accompanied them picked himself up from his
less than graceful jump to the Plaza floor, muttering in a disfigured tongue his
judgement about the encounter.
"Your Highness, we are the Ambassadors
for the Supreme Chancellor," the older one said, addressing her decoy.
"Your negotiations seem to have failed, Ambassador," Governor
Bibble remarked.
"The negotiations never took place," the
older one explained. "Your Highness, we must make contact with the Republic."
"They've knocked out all our communications," Panaka informed
them.
"Do you have transports?" The elder one inquired
Panaka nodded. "In the main hanger. This way."
Hurriedly
they ran into the Palace, using one of the many secret access ways to the hanger,
coming to a breathless halt at the threshold of the chamber. From her position
just behind her decoy, Padmé saw the battle droids, the sheer volume causing
her to blanch in fear that they could not escape them.
"There
are too many of them," Panaka concluded.
"That won't be a
problem," the older Ambassador remarked. He turned to the Queen. "Your
Highness, under the circumstances, I suggest you come to Coruscant with us."
"Thank you, Ambassador, but my place is here with my people,"
Sabé replied, as ordered to do so by her Queen only moments ago in the
Council chamber, after all global communications were blocked, before the invasion
party landed, should such a rescue arise. Padmé now mused over the wisdom
of this reply, doubting what good she could do her people if she was arrested
by the Viceroy.
"They will kill you if you stay," the Ambassador
declared.
Governor Bibble shook his head incredulously. "They
wouldn't dare."
Panaka agreed. "They need her to sign a treaty
to make this invasion of theirs legal. They can't afford to kill her."
"The situation here is not what it seems," the Ambassador replied.
"There is something else behind all this, Your Highness. There is no logic
in the Federation's move here. My feelings tell me they will destroy you."
The Governor turned to the Queen. "Please, Your Highness, reconsider.
Our only hope is for the Senate to side with us. Senator Palpatine will need your
help."
Panaka shook his head. "Getting past their blockade
is impossible, Your Highness. Any attempt to escape will be dangerous."
"Your Highness, I will stay here and do what I can," Governor
Bibble promised. "They will have to retain the Council of Governors in order
to maintain control. But you must leave."
Sabé turned as
she replied, catching sight of her handmaidens. "Either choice presents a
great risk to all of us."
"We are brave, Your Highness,"
Padmé said, a carefully worded response designed to convey to her decoy
that she agreed with the Ambassador's suggestion.
"If you are
to leave, Your Highness, it must be now," the Ambassador added.
"Then,
I will plead our case before the Senate," the Queen answered. "Be careful,
Governor," she added, before following them into the hanger.
"We
need to free those pilots," Panaka informed their rescuers. His hand moved
to his rifle as he advanced forward, but immediately the younger ambassador smoothly
forestalled him with his hand.
"I'll deal with them," he
declared, before heading towards the area where a group of droids held the pilots
hostage.
Padmé felt her gaze drawn to his actions, watching him from her place within the group of handmaidens travelling with the Queen. She saw him ignite his lightsaber, jump to aim simultaneous kicks at two droids, and realised only then that the Supreme Chancellor had sent the Jedi to help her. He must have more faith in her world than she had previously believed.
The
younger Jedi made quick work of the droids, calling to the pilots to head for
safety, whilst the elder disabled those guarding her spaceship. She watched him
as he fought with his lightsaber, recalling how hard her self-defence training
had come to her, pacifist that she was by nature. He made it look so easy, using
the weapon as if it was nothing more than an extension of himself, yet at the
same time, when he was listening to her decoy's conversation with his companion,
he held himself at peace, a calmness she found elusive lately. She envied him,
but without resentment. She also felt drawn to him, in a way she could not explain.
Time seemed to slow, to still, as she watched him, as though the Force was telling
her to remember this moment, this man, for their would change her life forever.
While she had never been to able to use the power, she trusted in her intuition,
her instincts, which never led her wrong.
She followed her decoy and
the other handmaidens up the boarding ramp into the ship, a couple of the freed
pilots and the younger Jedi following. The elder finished off the droids then
leapt onboard. Padmé watched the ramp close, then joined her maids in the
Queen's quarters, where she watched the vulnerable craft's passage through the
blockade, via the onboard communications system. She frowned as she heard the
argument put forth concerning Tatooine as a safe port for repairs, the world notorious
throughout the galaxy for being under the rule of the Hutts, but she saw the point
in the Jedi's reasoning, besides they had little choice if she wanted to reach
the capital. The fact that the planet was suggested by the younger Jedi only made
her more curious about him. Padmé kept her gaze on him as Captain Panaka
briefed her decoy and attendants about the escape through the blockade in the
Queen's chambers following the jump to lightspeed.
"An extremely
well put together little droid," Panaka concluded in praise of the machine
which had proved instrumental in restoring power under fire. "Without a doubt,
it saved the ship, as well as our lives."
"It is to be commended,"
Sabé said, catching Padmé's slight nod of consent just before she
spoke. "What is its number?"
Panaka stepped forward and examined
the marking on the droid's head. "R2-D2, Your Highness."
"Thank
you, Artoo Detoo," Sabé said with a smile as the droid beeped in return.
"Padmé!" she called, causing her to move her gaze from the younger
Jedi and walk from her place beside the other attendants to bow before her decoy.
"Clean this droid up the best you can," Sabé requested.
"It deserves our gratitude. Continue, Captain."
Panaka looked
towards the Jedi, and the elder one carried on with the briefing. "Your Highness,
we are heading for a remote planet called Tatooine. It is a system far beyond
the reach of the Trade Federation. There we will be able to make needed repairs,
then travel on to Coruscant."
"Your Highness, I do not agree
with the Jedi on this," Panaka declared.
"You must trust
my judgement, Your Highness," the elder Jedi said, without elaborating as
to why.
"I have heard your reasoning, Master Jedi," Sabé
revealed. "Via the internal comm and while I accept that it is not controlled
by the Trade Federation, it is still dangerous. I know however that we have little
choice if we are to reach Coruscant in time. Therefore I agree with this course
of action."
Panaka bowed, followed by the Jedi and then all departed
her quarters, leaving her alone with her handmaidens.
Sabé turned
to her Queen with a small, knowing smile. "And what will you do when we arrive
at Tatooine, Your Highness?"
"I imagine I will wait on board
the ship until we depart for the Core," Padmé replied.
"And
talk with the younger Jedi?" Eirtaé teasingly inquired.
"Why
would I want to do that?" Padmé asked innocently.
"We've
all seen your interest in him," Rabé revealed.
"And
his in you," Sabé added.
Padmé stilled. "Really?"
He looks when you realise you're staring and you look away," Eirtaé
answered.
"Oh." Padmé felt her face blush. Then she
frowned. "He's a Jedi. He's some years older than me. And I'm Queen of a
planet under blockade. This cannot happen."
And yet it is, Padmé realised silently as she left the quarters to find somewhere to clean up R2D2. She had not spoken a word to him or he to her. They did not know the other's name. But she wanted to know everything about him. If being a Jedi was all he wanted. If his voice was always that rich when he spoke. What made him laugh, cry, smile, if he sang. If when he looked at her he saw someone he could learn to love, not a young girl who was terrified for her world's survival.
She wondered what was happening to her, why all her thoughts drifted so
easily into thinking about him rather than the planet and the people she was elected
to reign over and care for. Soberly she schooled her focus upon them, trying to
imagine the fear they felt at being forced out of their homes into camps by armies
of droids. It was not difficult, all too easy in fact, causing her to wonder if
her mind had unconsciously chosen to think about the Jedi as a defence to maintain
her rationale, her courage to leave her world and her people to appeal their case
before the Senate. Not for the first time she started to doubt if she was worthy
of the authority her people chose to honour her with.
R2D2 beeped and came to a halt, causing Padmé to leave her thoughts and focus on her surroundings. They had reached the maintenance bay, the perfect place to find everything to clean her companion. Pressing the release for the door she followed R2 inside, found a cloth on the workbench nearby and began to clean.
Kneeling before
the droid, who tootled happily at her efforts to wipe the combat scorch marks
from his covering, it was easy for her thoughts return to her world, her people.
She worried for the handmaidens she had to leave behind, her advisors, her security,
her pilots. She tried not to think about her family but inevitably images of them
would appear in her mind, their faces contorted with terror at the sight of the
droids. Her parents who had sacrificed so much to help her career, her sister
Sola newly married, she had attended the wedding just after her election, in the
guise of a handmaiden to keep the attention on the bride. It caused her to heart
to ache remembering that event now and contrasting it with their reaction to the
invading droid army.
"Hidoe!"
The loud high pitched
voice startled Padmé, causing her to jump as she looked up at the visitor,
a Gungan who appeared deeply apologetic for causing such distress.
"Sorry,
nomeanen to scare yousa."
"That's all right," Padmé
assured him.
"I scovered oily back dare. Needen it?" he asked
her.
"Thank you, this little guy is quite a mess."
"Mesa
Ja Ja Binksss," he introduced himself as he handed her the oil can.
"I'm
Padmé," she returned. "I attend Her Highness. You're a Gungan,
aren't you? How did you end up here with us?"
It was with great
difficulty that she managed to translate Jar Jar's reply; his presence seemed
to be due to running into the Jedi, who saved his life. Padmé wondered
if the Gungans would be discovered by the droids, or if the Trade Federation believed
them to be a myth like every other offworlder.
The door opened, revealing
the Jedi, the elder of whom stepped forward and addressed the Gungan.
"Jar
Jar, you will accompany me on Tatooine," he requested. "The droid as
well, handmaiden."
Padmé nodded, R2 beeped curiously and
Jar Jar prostrated himself before the younger Jedi in despair, preventing him
from following his master.
"Noooo, Obi-Wan, sire, pleeese, no mesa go!"
"I'm sorry, Jar Jar, but Qui-Gon is right. Tatooine is a multinational
spaceport, a trading centre. You'll make him appear less obvious by going along,"
the young Jedi replied.
Padmé turned back to R2, rubbing the
cloth against his dome, her mind unable to wipe away the expression of fear which
Jar Jar wore, and the combination of the invasion upon her planet. She imagined
the Gungan's reaction to the invasion, and her heart quivered at the thought that
her actions were damaging not just her people but another race as well, whose
existence most were ignorant of. Her vision blurred as she finally let loose the
full extent of her grief, but not entirely to distinguish desert browns closing
in, followed by flesh tones which parted to press against either side of her forehead
in stroking circles.
Under so gentle a massage Padmé felt a
calmness settle over her, as gradual as the turn of the tide. When her vision
cleared, she found a pair of blue grey eyes staring back at her.
"I
apologise if I startled you," he uttered gently. "I hope you are feeling
a little better."
A little better? Padmé echoed
silently, marvelling at the understatement. "I am, thank you," she replied,
realising that she felt eerily calm and composed. How had he done that?
"Partly the Force, partly massage," Obi-Wan explained to her
unaired inquiry. "I know it was a little inappropriate, but I felt your pain
and I wanted to give you some comfort."
"It wasn't inappropriate
at all, thank you." Padmé found herself savouring the syllables in
his name now she knew it at last, along with the clipped Coruscanti accent with
which he spoke.
"My pleasure," he uttered, his eyes meeting
hers, the myriad of colours reminding her of a warm and welcoming pool of water.
He smiled at her, and she found herself wanting him never to do anything else.
Feeling her face flush, she turned to cleaning R2 again, who beeped happily
under her administrations.
"I'm afraid you cannot be too clean,
R2," the Jedi said as he picked up a cloth and, kneeling beside her on the
floor, began to assist in the restoration. "He must appear to be a native,
not a remarkable droid who bypassed several systems to bring the shields back
online under heavy fire."
"Truly exceptional," Padmé
murmured. "Not a droid destined to spend his life on a moisture farm."
"Sometimes others decide that fate for you," Obi-Wan said with
feeling.
"What do you mean?" Padmé asked.
"Jedi
younglings who aren't selected by a Master serve in the AgriCorps," he explained.
"If it hadn't been for Qui-Gon, I would have spent my life on a farm. What
about you? Did you always want to be a handmaiden?"
"I'm
not a handmaiden," she blurted in reply, without concern for her cover. Padmé
froze as she heard the words echo through her head, out before she had given thought
to her reply. Why did she say that? Since when had she found herself unable to
lie to him? "I mean, none of us are, really. From time to time we protect
the Queen as her decoys."
"So have you always wanted to be
a decoy?" Obi-Wan asked with a grin.
Padmé was about to
answer, when suddenly she saw him still, his expression transforming into one
of eerie distant calmness before he muttered a hurried excuse, rose from his knees
and took off out of the room at a run. She followed him in time to see him come
to a stop and fall gracefully to the ground to cradle his Master's head in his
lap. As she neared him, Padmé watched Obi-Wan place a hand on Qui-Gon's
forehead, closing his eyes, his face a trouble expression of concentration. After
a moment he rose up and levitated his master's body with the Force.
"It's just a seizure," Obi-Wan explained before Padmé could ask. "He'll be well in a few days. I'll go to Mos Espa in his place." He was walking away to the quarters assigned to the knights before Padmé could even reply with her excuse of informing the Queen, when in reality she was about to persuade her Chief of Security that she could do with a trip to a desert world trading port.
As she made her way through the ship to locate and speak to Panaka, the image of Obi-Wan cradling his master remained in her mind. His moves, his utter seeming calm facade throughout was too practised to render the incident out of the ordinary. Evidently something was wrong with the Jedi Master, something grave and personal else they would have been warned that this might occur. Padmé hoped it was not mortal, for she feared the image in her head was not just in the past, but in the future too and she feared for the young man whom she only just met.
If Obi-Wan had heard Padmé's thoughts, he would have silently confirmed
them. He had done this before. Too many times in fact. Seizures were a product
of Qui-Gon's illness; the occurred without warning or cause. One of his worst
fears now was that one day his Master would fail to emerge from the seizure. Everytime
he was able to place Qui-Gon in a healing trance- the irony of those two words
did not escape him -Obi-Wan would breathe more easily. As he did now while using
the Force put his master into the bed in the Quarters they shared on the Nubian
vessel. The Padawan looked at his Master one final time before leaving him to
recover while he checked the engines to see what else needed replacing.
It
did not take long to discover that the hyperdrive was inoperable. When he had
changed into farming clothes, Obi-Wan checked the rest of the ship before collecting
Jar Jar and R2D2 from the maintenance bay. He looked in on Qui-Gon before leaving.
His master was still deep in a healing trance, which would render him incapable
of handling anything while they were on this planet. Obi-Wan hoped that the Queen's
security forces were adequate protection for the ship and those on board while
he was away.
With the Gungan and the droid following, Obi-Wan stepped
onto the golden sand of the desert outskirts of Mos Espa. The extreme heat which
came from the system's two suns caused him to raise his cloak over his hair, which
he had deliberately restyled to disguise Jedi traditions, the long thin Padawan
braid coiling the rest of his hair into a low lying tail. Behind him Jar Jar made
an idle comment about the heat, while R2D2 beeped a worried soft sequence of notes.
He had barely left the ship when the head of the Queen's security
called out to him.
"Wait!" Panaka cried, causing Obi-Wan
to turn round. He hid a smile when he recognised the captain's companion, dressed
for the trip into town, her blue poncho style gown a discreet contrast from the
flame shades of the handmaiden garbs he had last seen her attired in. "Her
Highness commands you to take her handmaiden with you. She wishes for her to observe
the local populous. She is curious about the planet."
If it had
been any other handmaiden, Obi-Wan would have resorted to his Master's usual indifference
to authority and refused. Although the addition of a woman to the travelling cabal
provided another convincing level to the deception that they were farmers out
to buy supplies, it was also another person at risk from the dangers of a Tatooine
space port. He looked at Panaka, who did not look particularly happy about this
command either, probably just as concerned for the handmaiden's safety, but doubtless
would insist on following the order through, his obedience to his Queen resolute
and immovable.
"I can speak several languages," Padmé
revealed, her voice not quavering at the prospect of this trip. "And I've
been trained in self-defence."
"Don't make me go back and
tell her you have refused," Panaka added.
"This is not a
good idea," Obi-Wan finally said. "But we don't have time to take the
matter up with the Queen. So just stay close to me, and keep an eye on Jar Jar."
"Why?" Padmé asked.
"Because he's curious
and clumsy," Obi-Wan replied. "Which will get him into trouble on this
planet."
Padmé nodded in acquiescence, whereupon Obi-Wan
turned and began walking towards the port once more. He knew she wanted to ask
about Qui-Gon, he could feel the question in the Force, but he wasn't ready for
that conversation. He had no desire to put doubts about Qui-Gon's competency into
hers and consequently the Queen's head, nor did he wish for his Master's illness
to appear as serious as it indeed was, knowing his Master did not regard his mortality
in the same light as he did. Instead he launched into a brief description of Tatooine;
authorities, sources of trade, relationships with the Republic, with neighbouring
planets, illegal practices, main produce.
"Tatooine is home to
Jabba the Hutt, who controls the bulking of the trafficking in illegal goods,
piracy and slavery that generates most of this planet's wealth. Jabba controls
the spaceports and settlements, all of the populated areas. The desert belongs
to the Jawas, who scavenge whatever they can find to sell or trade, and to the
Tuskens who live a nomadic life and feel free to steal from everyone. There are
a number of farms as well, outlying operations that take advantage of the climate,
moisture famers for the most part, operated by offworlders not a part of the indigenous
tribes and scavengers, not connected directly to the Hutts," he finished
with. "This a rough and dangerous place, which most beings who are not inured
to such harsh conditions avoid. The few spaceports like this one are havens for
those who do not wish to be found."
"Like us," Padmé
remarked.
Obi-Wan nodded in agreement. They had entered the port now,
passing through the market area towards the warehouses for pilots and other engineers.
He sank into the Force, allowing it to guide them to the right trader for this
deal, trusting the ancient power to succeed in this matter just as it had with
placing Qui-Gon in a healing trance. Suddenly he felt a strong concentration which
suggested a strong Force presence was nearby, the type of ability he usually felt
from Yoda; but unlike the renowned Jedi Master's, this was untapped, untrained.
It seemed to be coming from one of the lesser traders, which suited his preference
for discretion, having no desire for their route to be traced, at least until
they were safely on Coruscant.
"We'll try one of the smaller dealers,"
he said as he led them to the source.
The shop was a typical example
of it's species; piles of broken spaceships stacked behind the building, the odd
part or two cluttering up the entrance. Inside were various droids, mostly verging
on antique, all powered down and in desperate stages of decay. Motivators, couplings,
wires and other junk or parts littered the floor, filed away only to allow space
for a walkway and service area. A pilot could assemble several ships from this
collection, every one fully customisable and unique, along with an eclectic group
of repair droids.
To Obi-Wan's surprise, the owner was Troydarian,
immune to the persuasion techniques of the Force, causing him to doubt that he
had sensed the power emanating from this shop in the first place.
"What
do you want?" he asked in his own tongue, hovering in midair before the Jedi,
his wings fluttering so fast as to appear nothing more than a blur.
"I
need parts for a J-type 327 Nubian," Obi-Wan replied in his.
The
shop owner switched from his native language to Basic. "Ah yes, ah yes. Nubian.
We have lots of that. What kinda of junk?" He inquired before breaking off
to yell in his native dialect to an assistant to come in and mind the store, in
less tactful terms than he had greeted his customers with.
Obi-Wan
was no stranger to the horrors of the universe, but even he was surprised to discover
that the source of the high level of Force power came from a slave boy of no more
than nine by the looks of him. He scrambled in, covered from head to foot in dirty
rags, scrawny, yet relatively well nourished. Trying to appear indifferent and
therefore used to the sight of slaves, Obi-Wan added, "My droid here has
a readout of what I need."
The Troydarian glanced at the droid with a calculating eye, accustomed to pricing machines in nanoseconds, mentally deciding how much funds he could con out of this customer in his mark up of the parts. He then turned to the boy, proceeding to yell at him in his native language about his absence and tardiness. Obi-Wan observed with a mixture of seeming Jedi indifference, as though the conversation was either uninteresting, or incomprehensible, when the reality was just the opposite.
The boy though flinching when his master raised his hand, replied with confident defensive attitude as to his previous whereabouts, before mounting a stool and clambering over the service ledge to mind the shop while they were out back. Obi-Wan felt the strength in the Force which belonged to the boy, but none of the recognition which indicated that the lad was fully aware of such an ability. He wondered why the Jedi had not discovered him before now.
Due to the decision made by the majority of the Jedi to
adhere to celibacy, there had been many trips made by scouts to the Outer Rim
territory in quest for Force sensitives and many had been found. Why not this
boy? Unless he was too much of a risk to take, he deduced. Older than usual initiates,
much more powerful. Obi-Wan knew the dangers of leaving such power untrained,
but there was just as much risk in teaching someone how to harness that power.
The legacy of the Lost Nineteen, Jedi who had fallen to the dark side or left
the order, taught them that.
Obi-Wan spared the boy one last look before
he followed the trader outside to the view the wares. As he did so, he caught
Jar Jar examining something in his hands. He stepped towards him, took the piece
of junk and returned it to it's original location.
"Don't touch
anything," he warned before joining the trader outside.
It turned
out to be short viewing of the wares, when the Troydarian informed him Obi-Wan
that Republican credits were worth little on Outer Rim planets such as Tatooine.
The Force seemed to misfiring on all fronts today; a child strong in the Force
but too old to be trained; parts attainable to repair the ship but impervious
to his currency; a beautiful woman to protect, single yet unattainable. Obi-Wan
paused as he wondered why his mind brought that forward for consideration. Now
was hardly the time to be thinking about Padmé, even though she was all
he had been able to think about ever since he noticed her while his Master briefed
the Queen.
"We're leaving," he announced to her as he entered
the shop once more, interrupting the conversation between her and the boy, causing
Jar Jar to drop what fresh piece of junk he was fiddling with and step to his
side.
"Why?" she asked as she hurried to join him and the
rest of their group outside.
Obi-Wan sought a secluded spot between
two buildings before he replied. "Is there any thing on board the ship that
we can use to trade for parts? Republican credits are worthless around here."
"A few containers of supplies," Padmé answered after a
few moments thought. "The Queen's wardrobe maybe. Not enough for you to barter
with. Not in the amounts we need."
Obi-Wan sighed. "Another
solution will present itself," he murmured with more confidence than he truly
felt. The Force had brought them here for more than just a boy, he was sure.
"Noah gain," Jar Jar moaned mournfully. "da beings hereabouts
cawazy. Wesa robbed un crunched."
"Not likely," Obi-Wan
replied. "We have nothing of value, that's our problem."
"Perhaps
one of the vendors in the market cater to tourists," Padmé suggested.
"We could exchange the credits for jewels."
"Or persuade
one of them more easily to accept the tender," Obi-Wan added. "It's
worth a try."
They emerged from the blind alley, Obi-Wan intently
scanning the market stalls for suitable candidates. He hated using the Force in
this way; manipulating another's free will for his own purposes, but if he wanted
to gather enough funds to purchase the parts for the ship, he had no choice.
"What did you mean by more easy to persuade?" Padmé asked
him.
"Find me a human vendor and I'll show you," Obi-Wan
replied.
Padmé cast her own gaze over the outdoor stalls, observing
each one in turn until she spotted a human trader, whereupon she pointed them
out discreetly to the Jedi.
The content of the wares became more apparent
as they walked closer to towards the booth. Jewels, Obi-Wan realised. Perfect.
"Choose something," he instructed her. "Anything you like,"
he added, suddenly desirous to buy her something.
Padmé was
no stranger to jewels. Since her inception first as Princess of Theed, then Queen,
she had been granted not only sight, but the privilege to wear Naboo's finest
gemstones. Possession was temporary however, was only as long as her term of office.
Whatever she chose, it would be the first gift which she did not have to return
to the giver after her reign ended. Carefully she examined the wares which the
vendor had to offer, wondering how her companion was going to persuade the seller
to accept Republican credits. Then she saw an item which almost took her breath
away. It was a beautiful necklace, the fine expensive metal shaped in a complicated
yet elegant filigree, enclosing gemstones of the deepest purple.
"May
I have a look at that piece?" She asked the vendor.
"Aah,
you have made an excellent choice," the trader replied as they lifted the
necklace off the hanger to place in Padmé's hands. "This piece is
exquisite, is it not? See the flourishes here and here? You can press them apart
to turn it into a clip for your hair, or into two separate items; a hair brooch
and a necklace."
Obi-Wan saw Padmé's wondrous gaze on the
item in her hands and suddenly the tool no longer felt so nefarious. "How
much?"
The trader named her price and form of currency. Another
who would refuse Republican credits it seemed. Padmé prepared to return
the item with a heavy heart, feeling guilty that she was thinking of herself when
her planet was in turmoil, when she saw Obi-Wan make a small gesture with his
hands; as if he were a conductor directing a symphony from an orchestra.
"Republican
dataries will do," he said at the same time as he performed this movement
with his hand.
"Republican dataries will do," the trader
repeated, accepting the funds calmly as the Jedi handed them over.
"How?"
Padmé asked as they turned away from the stall.
"The Force
can be a powerful influence on the weak-minded," Obi-Wan replied. "Here,
let me put it on you."
Padmé held out the necklace for
him to take, then lifted her hair so he could fasten it around her neck. Obi-Wan's
hands lingered on her skin, as he fought a sudden urge to kiss her. Hastily he
reminded himself that she was probably the same age as the Queen, whom according
to his research was fourteen. Too young for him to be even contemplating such
thoughts, for he was eleven years older. Not to mention that while he still a
Padawan such things were forbidden.
Then a commotion erupted in the
middle of the trading area, causing him to look up and see Jar Jar being harangued
by a vicious looking Dug. By the time he and Padmé arrived at the scene
the Gungan had already been rescued, by the boy who worked at the warehouse which
they had just visited.
"Hi," he greeted them with. "Your
buddy here was about to be turned into orange goo. He picked a fight with a Dug.
An especially dangerous Dug called Sebulba."
"Nosir, nosir,"
Jar Jar protested fearfully. "Mesa hate crunchen. Dat's da last ting mesa
wanten."
"Nevertheless, the boy is right," Obi-Wan remarked.
"You were heading for trouble. Thank you, my young friend."
"Anakin
Skywalker, meet Obi-Wan Kenobi," Padmé said.
They shook
hands, then Anakin led them through the stalls, stopping before one owned by a
wizened woman who smiled kindly at him.
"Hello Jira," Anakin
greeted. "I'll take four pallies today." he reached into his pocket
and produced three coins, accidentally dropping one.
Obi-Wan bent to
pick it up, the action unknowingly revealing his lightsaber from it's hidden resting
place beneath the poncho to the boy.
Anakin gasped silently at the
sight of the legendary weapon, then returned his attention to his purchase. "Whoops,
I thought I had more, make that three, I'm not hungry."
"Gracious,
my bones are aching," Jira said as she handed the pallies to the boy. "Storm's
coming Ani. You better get home quick."
"Thanks." Anakin
turned to his friends. "Do you have shelter?"
"We'll
head back to our ship," Obi-Wan replied.
"Is it far?"
Anakin asked.
"On the outskirts," Padmé answered.
"You'll never reach the outskirts in time," Anakin said. "Sandstorms
are very, very dangerous. You can shelter at my home, it's nearer. Come with me.
Hurry!"
He led them through the vendors stalls as the winds grew
in their intensity, dust and sand grains gathering around them as they entered
a housing quarter. Anakin led them inside one of the small dwellings which were
stacked like packing crates on top of one another.
"Mom, I'm home,"
he called out as they entered a cozy, minimal, simple home, with a comforting
quietness compared to the noise of the storm raging outside.
A woman
about the same age as Qui-Gon entered the room with brown hair and a kindly looking
though perplexed face. "Oh my, Ani, what's this?"
"These
are my friends, Mom," Anakin replied. "I'm building a droid," he
revealed to Padmé, before dragging her to his room, leaving Obi-Wan to
introduce themselves.
He bowed before her. "My name is Obi-Wan
Kenobi, your son was kind enough to offer us shelter from the sandstorm."
"I'm Shmi Skywalker," she returned, uncertain and concerned
that her frugal way of living, rendered necessary by her slavery, would prove
inadequate to him.
Obi-Wan felt her uncertainty through the Force and
retrieved some ration capsules from his pockets, pressing them into her hands.
"I have enough food for a meal."
"Oh thank you,"
Shmi replied. "I'm sorry if I was abrupt. I'll never get used to Anakin's
surprises."
"He's a very special boy," Obi-Wan remarked.
"Yes I know," Shmi murmured, her expression one of complete understanding,
as if she were privy to a secret he could only guess at.
Suddenly a
beeping began to enamate from his pockets; the comm device he had been handed
by Captain Panaka before leaving the ship. It was fortunate that sandstorms did
not affect communications, he mused, before retrieving the device from beneath
his poncho.
"Excuse me," he uttered with a slight bow before
walking towards the yard access which he had seen on his entrance into the quarters.
Despite being exposed to the elements the yard held a hushed calm which
belied the violence of the sandstorm raging around them. Conditions were suitable
for him to answer the comm.
"There is a communication coming from
Naboo, Padawan Kenobi," the Captain said at the other end of the line.
"Play it," Obi-Wan replied.
The message was patchy,
with a great deal of interference, but there was more than enough to convey the
desperation felt by the sender; Governor Bibble. Obi-Wan listened to the message
carefully, as it relayed that food supplies were cut off, that the death toll
was catastrophic, and that it was urgent that the Queen contact them. He felt
the despair in the Governor's voice, but he also felt something darker behind
it. Something planned and plotted, designed first to lure, then to trap the Queen
and the Jedi, he realised.
"It's a trick to establish a trace,"
he replied into the comm device. "Send no response. Send no transmission
of any kind."
"Aye, sir," the Captain uttered.
"How
is Master Jinn?" Obi-Wan asked.
"Still sleeping," Panaka
answered.
"Contact me if you receive anything else, or when he
wakes," Obi-Wan requested.
"We will," Panaka replied
before ending the call.
"What if it is true?" A voice asked
behind him, making Obi-Wan turn round and see that Padmé was standing on
the threshold of the yard.
"I would have sensed it," Obi-Wan
assured her, pocketing his comlink. "Either way, we're running out of time."
He observed her as she came towards him. She appeared to be concerned for more
than her family and the Queen. Something preoccupied her. A burden placed upon
her which she now doubted she was worthy of or ready for. He knew that feeling
well, he had experienced it ever since Qui-Gon's illness was diagnosed.
"How
can you have that much faith?" she asked him. "Is it the Force?"
"Yes, your Highness," Obi-Wan replied, causing her to gasp.
"How did you know?" she queried.
"You have the
demeanour of someone who is carrying a heavy responsibility," he answered.
"I know it well." he adjusted his stance. "When you are in a time
of need, what do you listen to?"
"What's inside me,"
Padmé replied. "My intuition."
"So do the Jedi,"
Obi-Wan explained. "Except inside us is the Force. And a powerful ally it
is."
She frowned at his speech pattern, causing him to chuckle.
"I'm sorry, you'll understand when you meet Master Yoda," he
remarked. "the Force led us to you, your Highness, and it led us to this
planet. It also led us to the warehouse and to Anakin. What did he show you?"
"A protocol droid he had built himself for his mother," Padmé
answered. "It was remarkable. He told me that a Hutt named Gardulla owned
him and his mother, loosing them to Watto over a pod race. How could a nine year
old be capable of so much skill in complicated mechanics?" It astonished
even her, who was from a planet which regarded children capable of the same intelligence
as adults and therefore be allowed the same rights.
"The Force,"
Obi-Wan replied. "It provides some with affinity for machines, or rather
enhances whatever natural talent that already exists. Sensitivity produces heightened
reflexes, a certain preconscious. Even amongst those who are untrained and or
who have no knowledge of their true potential. Were you ever tested, your Highness?"
"Padmé," she corrected. "I'm undercover, remember."
"I will," he promised. "It was wise to employ a decoy on
Naboo. However it is dangerous to do so here. And to keep such a security measure
from myself and my Master."
"More dangerous than remaining
on the ship while your Master heals?" She countered.
He blanched,
turning from her. She reached out and clasped his hand before he could. "I'm
sorry. I'm sure you're worried about him. The truth is I wanted to be with you.
I wanted to learn more about you."
Obi-Wan blushed for there was
no mistaking her meaning or look. Then he took her into his arms. She rested her
head against his chest, closed her eyes and breathed him in. As he did the same,
holding her slight figure, he reminded himself that he was a Jedi, that he could
not be anything else, that she was young and the Queen he had to protect. There
was no time for this. A part of him wondered if there ever would be.
Obi-Wan
closed his eyes and breathed in the gentle flowered smell which belonged to her,
partly to recognise her again when she assumed her role and duties as Queen, partly
to savour and remember this closeness when they were parted, before he gradually
withdrew from the embrace.
"Come, lets go inside," he proposed. "I'm sure dinner will be ready soon."
Part 3: The Knight & The Lady of The Lake.
As she listened to the conversation during dinner Padmé reflected on how little she knew about the Republic. She had spent her whole life helping others, working first in the Refugee Movement, then as an Apprentice Legislator, centring her focus on education and ethics, relying that they would teach her about the Republic. She had experience in travelling to other systems, helping displaced people and others who did not have the bounty which Naboo had given her, but she had forgot the hardships faced by those on Outer Rim worlds.
As she listened to Anakin and his mother talk about the devices planted inside them, which would detonate if they ever ran away from their enslavers, Padmé was horrified by how little value their lives were held. On Naboo every life was precious, and children were the future. She could not understand the clear disregard of the Republic's antislavery laws.
But
then the Trade Federation were doing the same to her world. The fragility of the
Republic caused her to wonder if the Senate could do anything to help her people.
She should have stayed with her people, but what could she have done to ensured
that the invasion force was defeated? Fighting was beyond her people, just as
she was sure it was beyond the Gungans who if Jar Jar was anything to go by, were
just as incapable of fighting seasoned warriors such as the droids of the Trade
Federation. No, she had to hope that tomorrow Obi-Wan would be able to use the
Force and trade their Republican credits for currency with which he could buy
the parts they needed, so they could continue their journey to Coruscant and she
could appeal to the Senate, praying that they would be able to help her.
"Have
you ever seen a Podrace?" Anakin asked them.
Padmé and
Jar Jar shook their heads, the Gungan releasing his tongue to lasso a piece of
fruit from a bowl towards his mouth.
"They have Podracing on Malastare,"
Obi-Wan revealed. "Very fast, very dangerous."
"I'm
the only human who can do it," Anakin said, causing his mother to glance
at him. "Mom, what? I'm not bragging. It's true. Watto says he's never heard
of a human doing it."
"You must have Jedi reflexes if you
race pods," Obi-Wan observed.
At that moment Jar Jar decided to
grab another piece of fruit with his long tongue from the bowl on the table. His
previous performance had been rude and noisy, causing the Padawan's next actions.
Before the Gungan's tongue was barely past his mouth, Obi-Wan trapped the organ
between his thumb and forefinger.
"Don't do that again,"
he warned, before letting go, causing it to snap back inside Jar Jar's mouth.
"You're a Jedi Knight, aren't you?" Anakin asked him then.
"What makes you think that?" Obi-wan inquired.
"I
saw your lightsaber," Anakin answered. "Only Jedi carry that kind of
weapon."
"Perhaps I killed a Jedi and stole it from him,"
Obi-Wan posed.
"I don't think so. No one can kill a Jedi Knight,"
Anakin stated with certainty.
Obi-Wan smiled sadly. "I wish that
were so."
"I had a dream I was a Jedi," Anakin said.
"I came back and freed all the slaves. Have you come to free us?"
"No, I'm afraid not," Obi-Wan replied.
"I think
you have," Anakin argued. "Why else would you be here?"
Obi-Wan
smiled, reflecting once more how perceptive and observant Anakin was, despite
his youth. "I can see there's no fooling you. You must not let anyone know
about us. We're on our way to Coruscant on a very important mission."
"How did you end up here?" Anakin asked.
"Our
ship was damaged and we're stranded here until we can repair it," Padmé
replied for the Jedi.
"I can help," Anakin offered. "I
can fix anything!"
"I believe you can," Obi-Wan assured
the boy, "but out first job is to acquire the parts we need."
"Wit
no nutten mula to trade," Jar Jar mourned.
"These Junk dealers
must have a weakness of some kind," Padmé murmured.
"Gambling,"
Shmi revealed. "Everything here revolves around betting on those awful races."
"I've built a racer!" Anakin added. "There's a big race
tomorrow on Boonta Eve. You could enter my pod."
"Anakin,
settle down," Shmi pleaded. "Watto won't let you."
"Watto
doesn't know I've built it," Anakin pointed out. "You could make him
think it's yours and you could get him to let me pilot it for you."
"I
don't want you to race, Ani," Shmi pleaded. "It's awful. I die everytime
Watto makes you do it."
"But, Mom, I love it," Anakin
argued. "And they need help. The prize money would more than pay for the
parts they need."
Obi-Wan shook his head. "Your mother is
right. Is there anyone friendly to the Republic who might be able to help us?"
Shmi shook her head.
"We have to help them, Mom,"
Anakin persisted. "You said that the biggest problem in the universe is that
no one helps each other."
"No," Obi-Wan uttered forcefully
before the boy made his mother concede. "I don't want to put your son in
danger. We'll find another way."
A silence settled over the dinner,
as Padmé glanced at Anakin's disappointed face, his mother's relieved one,
and Obi-Wan's who was deep in thought. She was glad he had refused. She did not
want Anakin rising his life for her. It bothered her that so many people were
risking their lives for her world already.
Obi-Wan's communicator beeped,
causing him to excuse himself from the table and head outside to answer.
"Padawan,"
Qui-Gon greeted him with.
"Master, it's a relief to hear from
you," Obi-Wan replied, just as Padmé placed herself on the threshold
of the yard to listen again.
"How are things going so far?"
Qui-Gon asked, causing Obi-Wan to give a full briefing which recapped everything
that had occurred to them since their departure from the ship. He left out the
purchasing of his gift to her, causing Padmé to smile and blush as she
recalled the moment, her hand unconsciously clasping the necklace which rested
upon her chest. She remembered how he had lingered in fastening the clasp, the
touch of his fingers upon her skin, his warmth breath arousing something deep
within her. If the sound of Jar Jar's predicament had not reached their senses,
she wondered what would have occurred.
"Why did you refuse the
boy's offer?" Qui-Gon queried when the briefing was concluded.
"It
was too dangerous, Master," Obi-Wan replied. "I remember the racing
on Malastare. There was an extremely high level of mortality amongst racers and
spectators."
"Yes, but none of the racers had the Force,
Padawan," Qui-Gon pointed out. "The boy has, and the Force meant us
to help him."
Padmé frowned. How could Master Jinn be so
certain Anakin had the Force when he had not even met him? His reliance on the
judgement of his Padawan appeared to be paradoxical at best.
"Master,
we cannot put the boy under such a risk," Obi-Wan said, causing Padmé
to smile at his objection. "Nor can we rest the whole outcome of this mission
on a podrace."
"You should have more faith in the Force,
Padawan," Qui-Gon admonished. "Accept the boy's offer. And fetch a blood
sample from him."
Obi-Wan bowed his head. "Yes, Master,"
he replied before ending the communication. He returned the device to his pocket,
then looked up to meet Padmé's gaze. "I don't want to put the boy
in any danger either, but my Master is in charge of this mission. Persuading minds
is not a power Jedi should resort to in achieving their aims. Besides there is
no other way."
Padmé shook her head. "I do not understand
your Master. How can he trust your judgement concerning Anakin possessing the
Force, but not the level of danger in him risking his life for us?"
Obi-Wan
smiled a little. "Qui-Gon is a Master in the Living Force. The here and now.
He also has a habit of using unorthodox methods during missions which frequently
put him against the Jedi Council. But he is one of the best Masters I have even
known. He also has a penchant for acquiring strays. That is how I became his Padawan."
Padmé frowned. "I thought you were raised by the Jedi."
"I was," Obi-Wan confirmed. "I was given to the Jedi when
I was a few weeks old. I was placed in the crèche until I was old enough
to begin my training under Master Yoda. We learn at the temple until our teens.
Then a Master or Knight selects us as their Padawan and we train under them until
out trials for knighthood.
"But there are those who are not selected,
either because they are not strong enough in the Force, or a Master does not choose
them. They are sent to serve in the Jedi Corps and never become knights. That
was my fate, until Qui-Gon ran into me during a mission which I helped to succeed.
He realised that he had misread my abilities and claimed me as his Padawan."
"He misread your abilities?" Padmé echoed. "You mean
he saw you before?"
"Yes. I was competing in the lightsaber
trials. My opponent already had a Master, everyone had except me. I was frantic
to impress Qui-Gon so I was too aggressive in my methods. I won but Qui-Gon judged
me too dangerous to train."
"So why did he take you later?"
Padmé asked.
"Because he realised my strengths lay in the
Unifying Force. The ability to see the big picture, to predict the future. He
had trained under such a master who possessed the same ability. He knew how well
they could compliment each other."
Padmé came closer to
him. "I had no idea the Force was two sided."
"It is
multifaceted," Obi-Wan gently corrected. "There were also those who
have channelled their negative emotions into the power; as oppose to their more
positive feelings. The Jedi seek to gain a greater understanding of the Force,
never to control it for their own advantage. Those who try become Sith, corrupted
and evil."
Padmé frowned. "How can emotions make you
evil? They're part of us all, negative and positive. They're what make us human."
Obi-Wan took her hand. "Yes, but if you allow them too great a reign
over your actions and reason, then they might blind you to the greater good. When
coupled with the ability to use the Force, emotion can become a danger, if not
controlled or let go. It can destroy those that we love as surely as it destroys
ourselves."
"Those that you love?" Padmé echoed,
curious. "I though the Jedi were not allowed to love."
"It
is not commonly known," Obi-Wan revealed. "My Master fought for attachment
to be extended over the whole Order only very recently. The old decision to deny
it is only retained towards Padawan learners, because we have yet to gain the
kind of training necessary to learn how to love, but not let that love become
an obsession. To allow the person we love to grow, or to leave us, if it is beneficial
to their welbeing. To care for someone, but not at the expense of the greater
good."
"I am glad of that," Padmé murmured, as
she tried to hide her blush as to why she was pleased to learn that the Jedi were
allowed to love. "Because from the way I see you care for Master Qui-Gon,
I do not think attachment was ever forbidden to your Order. After all, it teaches
you to serve the greater good, to keep justice and peace within the galaxy. What
use are such lessons without knowing what is like to live in the galaxy? If you
truly had to forbid yourself from ever showing love or compassion, it would only
teach you the reverse."
Obi-Wan nodded, reflecting once more how
much he respected and admired this young woman before him, whom he had only come
to know since their first meeting abroad the Nubian craft which carried them here.
"Padmé, never doubt that your people were right in choosing you as
their sovereign. For you have more sense of morals, justice and compassion than
any one I have ever met who call themselves leaders of their worlds."
Padmé blushed at the praise, though she was pleased to receive it
from him, for his opinion of her had rapidly become very important to her. She
gazed back at him, meeting the steady glance of his blue eyes, which seemed to
alter their colour oh so slightly with every expression he greeted the universe
with. She wondered if it was a product of her affection for him, already deeper
than it should be, or if it was because he was a Jedi. It provoked her into asking
a question. "What is the Force like?"
He stayed silent for
so long that she feared she had breached an intimacy between them that he would
not permit. But before that fear could grow into a verbal retraction he began
to speak. "No, you can ask. It is just difficult to explain in a proper depth
to answer your question. The Force is as boundless as the ocean. It flows through
the life of every being within the universe, from the smallest creature to the
largest mountain. For those who possess the sensitivity, it can speak to them,
tell them of things to come, or provide a glimpse into something one cannot yet
understand. For the Jedi it guides us, allowing us to use it to help those in
universe who need such assistance as we can provide."
"And
for the Sith it is a tool to used as a mean to furthering their own cause,"
Padmé reasoned, smiling a little when she received his nod that her deduction
was accurate. "But how can they not realise that this will ultimately cause
their own destruction?"
"Mostly because they were never taught
to do so," Obi-Wan replied. "The Sith have been extinct for a millennia
though. Wiped out by their own inability to realise that their quest for power
will destroy them just as you have said."
"What about those
who have left the Order?" Padmé asked, recalling from her education
of the rumours about such Jedi she had heard during her youth, rumours she was
able to confirm when she joined the Apprentice Legislature. "How do they
view the Force?"
"Most leave the order because they disagree
with our methods in training," Obi-Wan explained. "Or because they feel
that they cannot give up their familial obligations once they learn of their nature.
But it is true that some left because they turned to the Dark Side, either to
learn more of the power or to protect others from the harm such teachings inflict."
"But if they realise that harm how can they be of the dark?"
Padmé asked. "Could someone not help them to find redemption or their
way back?"
Obi-Wan shook his head. "I've never heard of anyone
doing so. Nor do I believe it is possible. I have never experienced it myself,
but the dark side is a threatening, malicious presence, one which will always
have a power over you, if you ever allow it to do so."
Padmé
frowned. "That sounds alien coming from an Order bound by compassion."
"It is one of the most difficult concepts about the Force," Obi-Wan
replied. "I'm not sure how else I can explain it to without showing you."
"Showing me? Can you really show someone the Force?" Padmé
asked, eagerly. Ever since her parents told her of the time she had taken the
test offered by the Jedi and pronounced borderline, she had always wondered at
what sort of life she would lead if the midi-chlorians inside her had been of
the right amount for training.
"I'll try and show it to you,"
Obi-Wan replied. "If you'll trust me to enter your mind. I won't hurt you
or invade your privacy."
"I trust you," Padmé
assured him, the extent of how much she trusted him both frightening and exciting
her.
"Close your eyes," Obi-Wan instructed.
Padmé
obeyed. Darkness surrounded her, but she could still feel the touch of his hand,
gentle and reassuring, a comfort, a light to take away any fear she might have
held.
"Focus on a place where you have always felt safe,"
Obi-Wan continued. "You're alone, aware of only yourself, yet you can feel
something surrounding you, calling to you. It is familiar, it is what you listen
to when you are called to act. The voice, the feeling that tells you this is the
right thing to do."
Listening to his voice, Padmé imagined
her home world, not invaded by the droid army, but peaceful and free as it always
was in her youth. In her mind she created a place from her memories, which she
had visited during free hours of her youth; the Lake Country. Her family had a
place there, one which she had spent her summers in, swimming or savouring what
she knew, turning it over inside her head, examining it from all angles. Knowledge
was precious to her, as precious as the need to help others, for she knew she
could help them better the more she learned, yet she also knew the dangers of
acquiring knowledge without a recognition for compassion, thought, logic, and
reason. Every sunrise and sunset she would stand alone on the balcony outside
her room, watching the horizon as it changed colour, and she would feel that awareness
which Obi-Wan had told her of.
The place was unusually vivid, every
shade sparkling with a depth of colour she had previously never noticed, yet somehow
she knew instinctively that it belonged. Then she felt a touch upon her hand,
the same touch which she felt in the real world, and as she recognised this familiarity
she turned to find Obi-Wan beside her. He was clad in the same robes she would
see upon him now if she opened her eyes, yet there seemed to be a light surrounding
him, almost mingling with his form. She lowered her gaze to where their hands
touched on the balcony ledge and was surprised to see the light encompassing her
hand as well as his.
"That light you see is the Force,"
he said to her, his voice soft, but as audible as if he had spoken at a normal
decibel. She could hear him speaking to her but she could also see him, for the
image of him inside her mind moved his lips in sync. Then she realised that it
was not just his image which she could see. She could feel him with her inside
her mind. Not necessarily every thought or every feeling, but the sensation produced
when he felt them, and the warmth she gained from his contact. Turning her mind's
eye from that contact, she gazed out at the horizon, and saw the same light, surrounding
everything, from the surf within the ocean which stretched out before them, to
the sun as it descended slowly from view.
"It's beautiful,"
she murmured, the word feeling inadequate, for never had anything else which she
had ever seen and ascribed that word to could even equal the sight that met her
eyes at this moment. "This is what you see in your mind all the time?"
"Yes," He replied, the mental image of his gaze leaving her form
to glance in the same direction as her, at the sunset. "See that storm on
the outskirts?"
Padmé was about to deny it, for the sky
seemed perfect to her, but then she caught the darkness in the clouds to the left
of the setting sun, the white vapour twisting and greying before her. As her mind
focused on the image, she watched the grey turn darker and darker, and bright
lightning cracking it into shards. She could feel the storm advance, closing in
on them, disturbing their peaceful intimacy. Like the darkness that the invading
droid army was gradually inflicting on her world right now, she realised, the
revelation chilling her.
"That is the dark side," Obi-Wan
murmured, and suddenly she understood the power of it, the temptation. She could
see how it could suck you in, like quicksand, never to return, the struggle only
making it worse.
Just as the storm seemed to near them, and the sun
disappeared behind the horizon, she saw the images slowly fading gradually from
her consciousness. Without a prompt from Obi-Wan, she opened her eyes to find
their hands still resting one on top of the other on the yard ledge. She looked
up into his eyes, the blue grey irises darkening to a more pure azure, drawing
her towards him. She closed her eyes, felt his breath upon her lips, then suddenly
the moment was broken by another.
"Master Kenobi?" Shim Skywalker
said as she stepped outside. Padmé opened her eyes to find Obi-Wan some
distance from her, conveying the impression that they were not about to kiss just
moments ago. She almost felt if she had imagined such an intention on his part.
"Please, call me Obi-Wan," he said to Shmi humbly. "I am
no master, only a student of the Force."
"Obi-Wan,"
Shmi acknowledged. "I came to say that Anakin is right. There is no other
way. I may not like it, but he can help you. He was meant to help you."
Obi-Wan nodded. "My Master agrees with you. Come, let us go tell Anakin
the news."
Padmé watched them go, her mind still very much with the moments alone spent inside her mind in Obi-Wan's embrace. She had seen so many different sides of him since their first meeting as he jumped down from a covered bridge to rescue her. His decisive warrior qualities in dispatching part of the droid army. His compassion in dealing with R2D2, herself, Jar Jar and his master. The passion and joy within him as he showed her the Force. He was older than her, probably wiser than her, yet he treated her as an equal, respected her opinions, presented other viewpoints for her to consider, without the insistence to conform to them. He seemed to care deeply about the lives of others, as his reluctance to accept Anakin's offer showed. He appeared confident in his ability with the Force, but not to the point of arrogance, rather humility. There was a noble quality about him, a gentleness and gentility. He cared deeply for his Master, despite objecting over Anakin's risk in his offer to help.
Padmé
recalled the moment when she saw him rush to Qui-Gon's side after sensing his
collapse. She wondered once more what was wrong with the Jedi Master, who had
to be suffering from something far more worse than possibly just fatigue. Yet
the Jedi selected him for this mission, so he must still be able to perform his
duties. Or they judged that Obi-Wan could easily fulfil them if Qui-Gon fell ill.
Padmé wondered how long he had until his knighthood. She was sure it could
not be long, for he appeared to her to be the equal of his Master already, if
not superior in some aspects. As a Queen she tried to remain neutral, impartial,
but despite telling herself not to judge Qui-Gon harshly, Padmé could not
help but feel a little dislike for the Master because of his attitude to Obi-Wan,
Anakin and Shmi. His illness could affect his behaviour, she told herself.
She might see a different side to him when they returned to the ship.
For the first time since their departure into Mos Espa, Padmé allowed herself to think of her home world. She could not escape feeling that leaving to appeal to the Senate was an act of cowardice. That she had betrayed her people by leaving them to the mercy of the droid army and the Trade Federation. She wondered about the darker conspiracy which Qui-Gon had alluded to. Was it merely a ploy to persuade her to go with them?
Despite this suspicion she also felt that there was more behind the blockade, and the invasion of Naboo. Her brief encounters with the Neimoidians left her with the impression that they were merely a facade, hiding the real face of whoever it was behind this scheme. Their protest about the tax on trade routes did not justify invasion, they had to have a deeper motive. Whatever it was, Padmé believed they would find the answers on Coruscant.
She
sighed. She had always wanted to travel to the Core world, but this was not the
reason she had in mind to use. Before her decision to run for Queen, she had worked
towards becoming a Senator. The only reason she had not entered herself against
the current incumbent was her belief that she was too young. A part of her laughed
at the irony; too young for the Senate, not for the throne. This mission was teaching
her many things; foremost that she had a lot more to learn.
Padmé returned to the rooms of the small dwelling, her gaze coming to rest on Obi-Wan and Anakin, as the young knight to be listened attentively to the boy as he described pod racing. Though she could not hear the words she could read their lips and discern the nature of the conversation from Anakin's expressive and rapid hand movements.
Eventually it was the Padawan's turn to describe something as
Padmé noticed Anakin fall into an eager silence, waiting. A gasp escaped
her as an object from the table floated in midair, travelling smoothly to hover
above the boy's opened hand. She had seem him levitate his Master, seen him place
said Master in a healing trance, seen the Force through his eyes, but it was still
a little wondrous to watch. She saw Obi-Wan talk with Anakin seriously, kneeling
before the boy so he was on a level footing with him, respecting his views, as
he took the oval ball out of the air and rested it in the palm of his hand. She
watched Anakin close his eyes, then suddenly the object floated again, hovering
above the Padawan's hand. Anakin opened his eyes and gasped at his new found ability.
When Shmi emerged from her room with space blankets and bedding for them,
the object was back under Obi-Wan's control, floating to its home on the table.
Anakin was blinking sleepily, the trick tiring him out, whereas Obi-Wan had not
even broken into a sweat. Padmé watched him usher the sleepy youth to bed,
as she realised the strength of her interest in him, She knew now why her thoughts
concerning the suffering of her world were seemingly so easily distracted. But
she also knew that she should savour these moments for once they returned to the
ship, there was less chance she would see him again. Their duties would part them
on Coruscant and when the blockade and invasion of her planet ended. Such separation
should have caused her to protect her heart, but she was already in too deep for
that.
She loved Obi-Wan Kenobi.